How Will He Use Me?

Each morning, for about the last six months, I get out of bed and recite this verse from the Psalms: This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it (Psalm 118:24). I like to start each day with that prayer in order remind myself that I have been given yet one more day on this Earth. I ask God to show me during the day how He can use me. I ask God each morning, "What do you have in store for me today? How can I be used for Your glory?" Finally, I pray (more as a reminder to myself) and ask God to help me drink from His living water so that I may be sustained as I go through each day (John 4:13-14).

Some days, I feel like I was really "in tune" with God and saw where He used me. Other days, I'm not so sure. Those are the days where I go to work, deal with administrative stuff all day, then go home. Have I missed something? Did God intend for me to do something, but I was so busy that I didn't hear Him talking to me? Or, maybe there was not one specific thing God needed me for that day, or perhaps I overestimate my own importance in carrying out His mission. I don't know.

Yesterday, however, was one of those days that I longed for. I had the chance to share my testimony about God's healing power. It was recorded on video for the "I Am Second" movement which is ongoing nationwide (www.iamsecond.com) and which will kick off at Texas A&M in early March. Holland, an amazing person and former counselor from Camp Stephenson, invited me to share my story, and I graciously agreed. Andrew will edit it and do amazing things to the video and eventually it will be available for sharing. I want people to know how God transformed me during my cancer experience. I am no longer the same person I was before; I pray that I never will be.

Thank you, God, for using me. I pray that I get out of the way so that Your word can be shared the way You want it to.